Monday, 22 June 2015

GOD FEELS FAR AWAY


These last few weeks have been difficult to say the least and as I sit here this Monday morning my body's aching and my fingers are throbbing with arthritis. 

I feel every day of my 62 years and wonder how I am going to cope with another decade or so that I probably have left of life.  My house is in need of a good tidy, and not the type that Teresa, my friend and home helper can do either.

There is washing to fold and put away, dishes to put in the dishwasher, cat kibbles to clear up from when the cats fought over the same dish of food. And their litter tray in the garage needs emptying. As I said, not stuff Teresa does.

I have had someone add a horrid caption to one of my pictures on Pinterest leading back to my other blog and I have had to delete my Board for it and redistribute my pins to other ones. I am stressing that readers have thought that I posted it. My stats have dropped considerably. Damage done I think.

Yesterday was a prayer meeting for people involved in the launch of our new Baptist church in two weeks. I literally forced myself to go as I am one of those people. Midway in prayer, I forgot a word I was searching for in prayer (anointing... it was.) and the air hung in pregnant silence. It was embarrassing, but my mind is suffering fibro brain fog and I don't look sick, so I didn't mention it.

I am so over being ill. Striving to be normal sucks. I am depressed. I admit it. And today, writing this, I feel like throwing in the towel.  If you feel led, please pray for me. God feels far away today... I  am in a hard place...

© Glenys Robyn Hicks


In my distress I called upon the LORDto my God I cried for help. From his temple he heard my voice,and my cry to him reached his ears. Psalm 18:12

3 comments:

  1. Oh, Glenys, I wish I lived near you...for I would love to do all that Teresa does not do, as those are things I do in my home every day.
    Those tasks do weigh on one's mind and not feeling well and unable to do them is quite hard to come to terms with...
    I will pray for you, and may the Lord bless you with some comfort and ease this day.

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  2. Oh Glenys I will pray for you now. I can relate to everything you said. I sat in my kitchen this morning and just SIGHED.....so much to do, so much cleaning, and I can't do it. My 15 year old step daughter isn't helping me much and is acting like a brat. She is lazy. Oh to have a choice to be lazy instead of forced due to all my sicknesses. It makes me really angry. I sleep more and more all the time...I just go to bed and quit. I am on 3 anti depressants. I will walk with you in this or as it is crawl through this. We all have each other to share these burdens. Love you dear sister. - Kelly

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  3. Dear Glenys, please know that there are people who care for you and as Enid said above wished they lived closer so they could help. I pray that God will give you strength and comfort at this time and that you will feel His presence. Thank you for giving us the opportunity to pray for you. Blessings and thanks for sharing.

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