Recently I have been battling in many areas...my fibromyalgia and polymyalgia rheumatica have flared causing chronic pain and chronic fatigue. I have had a reaction to a flu vaccination which has given me a bad cold and chesty cough and caused my heart to pain me in angina attacks. And I have been quenching darts and am battle weary!
Lately I have been posting a lot on feminism's evils and as a result I have been receiving some very nasty comments... so nasty that I have had to delete them. Now you who know me well, know that I post most comments and try to answer them as honestly and respectfully as I can, but there is nothing quite so vicious as a feminist who is on a crusade for her cause. I honestly have never heard such vitriole and the personal attacks have been written to wound me.
There is also a blog dedicated to bringing down Fundamentalist Christian women's blogs. I must be rattling some chains, because I have become their "most favourite fundie" and have been called "the mother-in-law from hell" and am now level pegging with another blogger, Lori Alexander of Always Learning... being likened to "Lori's Australian sister" Apparently, I am " always bringing in the crazy!" (Lori's blog is good by the way, so have a read!)
Because I was already down and out with my health and close to the Pit of Despair, I decided after Chris took charge and demanded I close my blog (in order to protect me, I might add), that I would stop blogging. In fact, you may have read the now deleted posts advising that I had stopped blogging. First I tried to avoid receiving comments, then in desperation, I deleted my blog completely.
I felt so empty after deleting my blog. Then I started to feel righteous indignation. I felt the LORD calling me to undelete my blog and to keep writing. So I talked it over with Chris and he suggested I just delete the offensive comments and not take it to heart. (easier said than done)
So, I prayed and the LORD brought to mind these verses: For this [is] thankworthy, if a man for conscience toward God endure grief, suffering wrongfully. For what glory [is it], if, when ye be buffeted for your faults, ye shall take it patiently? but if, when ye do well, and suffer [for it], ye take it patiently, this [is] acceptable with God. For even hereunto were ye called: because Christ also suffered for us, leaving us an example, that ye should follow his steps:
I feel a bit guilty that I was found weak at the time of this testing, but I have repented and have tried to put that which was wrong, right. Hence the post this morning.... I don't know if I will have many readers after deleting my blog and so on, but that is in God's hands, not mine. All I know is that I felt empty without sharing tea with you and have answered the call. So I am quenching darts, battle-weary but obedient... and starting to see my fundie crazy woman status as getting through to a lot of lost women...and isn't that what I started blogging for anyway? Blessings to you all,